You’re a fool if you think God has no interest in you. He’s crazy about you.
Just as too much rain can drown a budding seedling, God holds back from giving too much of Himself at first, treating us softly, tenderly at our first awakening. He is so close to us, closer than our breath, that we often don’t even notice Him. He only prunes us when we shoot our leaves into another flower’s sunlight or try to grow in the wrong direction. Most of the time, we don’t even recognize Him pruning because He often uses those closest to us to do so. Again, the gentle lover, He doesn’t want to come across too strong.
“God has placed in our hearts a longing to seek and find Him. St. Augustine says, ‘You have made us for yourself and our heart is restless until it rests in You.’ A person is not completely himself until he has found God.” [YOUCAT 3 (Youth Catechism of the Catholic Church)]